Diary of a fatman: DoF post 15

DOF = Diary of a fatman. All calorie readouts as per machine display unless otherwise stated. Aiming to exercise 6 times a week.

Sun 22/03/09 No, rest day .

Mon 23/03/09 Incline bicycle 270 Calroies after 30 min, annoying, means I have to work harder next time. I was tired so I started this week with the bike.

Tue 24/03/09 Rowing machine 310 calories, 30 min. Exhausting. Elbows, clicky.

Wed 25/03/09 Treadmill 210 calories, 30 min.

Thu 26/03/09 Rowing machine 315 calories, 30 min. Elbows hurt, keep clicking while exercising, strange.

Fri 27/03/09No, blame my bro. Double workout tommorow.

Sat 28/03/09Bike 280 calories, 30 min & Treadmill 215 calories, 30 min.

Weekly summary: 1600 calories this week 267 per workout. No weights or anything special this month, my knees and elbows really weren’t up to it, especially my right elbow, I think I was a bit careless with the weights last week, but feeling better now.

Week ending Stats: No no no no no no. Waiting until the end of the month.

Hate and Confusion

Hate myself so much, useless, terrified, lonely, confused, hateful, how is a fool like me supposed make things better? Feels better to get that off my chest, now I know I should take a shower and go pray. Then sleep, not much of that lately, though I am very tired sis was with me last 2 nights (she just had an op so I thought I should do my bit to take care of things) but whenever I go on my side (I move a lot in bed) and try to lay back down on my back her arm is there or SHE is there right under me, I’m afraid I will flatten her, also since the op she doesn’t snore much, which is scary because I keep forgetting and thinking she stopped breathing (my mother is just as bad ). Anyway she be with umi tonight, I’m broke beccause father doesn’t know how to manage his business, honestly how is it my fault? this is at least the third time he does this, annoying. Looking at the website stats hardly anyone visits the site so I am pretty much writting whatever I feel like HAHAHA, surely nobody who knows me, YAY freedom , I hate it, I want a cage. I’m starting to hate stupid people, I mean stupid as in make bad choices and adopt pathetic, self serving and vague philosophies (please note I use the term very loosly) with no meaning, foundation or logic behind them (the philosophies), I want to kill them (or have them castrated with a chainsaw in some cases, which I hope kills them but more painfully), they cause too much damage, hurt too many people, and they are losers. Everything is so complicated when it could be so simple, just because of some fool interfering. A (long distance) friend of my mother just died recently, quite sudden and sad, cancer. Allah yirhamha. Need to go better my fat, ugly, insomniac and insecure self. 4 laptops on my desk yesterday (IT maintanance, my 2nd job so to speak , can’t charge my family though ).

Diary of a fatman: DoF post 14

DOF = Diary of a fatman. All calorie readouts as per machine display unless otherwise stated. Aiming to exercise 6 times a week.

Sun 15/03/09 No, rest day .

Mon 16/03/09 Tired. Bad start to the week. Out all day, stressful times. Nana is not well. Sis needs op.

Tue 17/03/09 Treadmill, 215 calories, 30 min. incline X kmph @ time, 6×5 @5min, 6×5.5 @20min, 7×2 @3min, 2min cooldown.

Workout no 2 220 calories 2nd workout today (punishment + my friend needed some company). Over an hour of mixed pace walking and a bit of light jogging. Only counting 230 calories because thats all I deserve.

Wed 18/03/09 Incline bicycle, 245 calories, 30 min.

Thu 19/03/09 Rowing machine, 300 calories, 30 min.

Fri 20/03/09 Treadmill, 220 calories, 30 min. 6 incline kmph @ time, 5@5min, 5.5@22min, 6.5@3min

Sat 21/03/09 Incline bicycle, 255 calories, 30 min. Overworked (actually 270 calories but I hurt my legs so I can’t set that as my target to beat ). Walked about 12km (lost & sightseeing in Stockholm, used google maps to crosscheck, only needed 6 to get to where I wanted and back , I had a compass and a map but didn’t use them , getting lost is fun sometimes, but tiring, and all I had was tea until I finally got back at 5pm). Couldn’t sleep, nightmares about sis, luckily op went fine Al Hamduli Allah

Weekly summary: Total of 1470 for 6 workouts, averaging 245 each. Lower average since rowing machine was only used once this week but overall I did much more work than I did last week (12km walk + 1hr workout I only gave myself 230 when it probably is closer to 350), also doing some weights after workouts (only curls and reverse curls, adding more this coming week). Stressful times, but then again aren’t they all? Ah well c’est la vie. No pic this week either, tired, sis can hear well now .

Week ending Stats Skipping this until the end of the month (probably the next DOF entry).

Diary of a fatman: DOF post 13

DOF = Diary of a fatman. All calorie readouts as per machine display unless otherwise stated. So trying to exercise mostly everyday. Starting to alternate between machines and doing some reverse curls at least. Slow start since I was sick for awhile but still some progress.

Sun 08/03/09 No, tired. Bad start to the week.

Mon 09/03/09 Treadmill, 200 calories, 30 min. 6 incline & 5.2 kmph for 17 min & 5.5 kmph for 10 min (rest warmup and cool down).

Tue 10/03/08 Incline bicycle, 230 calories, 30 min.

Wed 11/03/09 Rowing machine, 260 calories, 30 min.

Thu 12/03/09 Incline bicycle, 240 calories, 30 min.

Fri 13/03/09 Treadmill, 225 calories, 30 min. 6 incline, 10min @5.1 kmph, 15min @5.6 kmph, 3min @7kmph (rest warmup and cool down).

Sat 14/03/09 Rowing machine, 305 calories, 30 min. Broken into 7 then 23 minutes (had to stop for a few minutes) Terribly tired but still managed,

Weekly summary: Total of 1460 for 6 workouts, averaging 240 each.

Week ending Stats Skipping this until the end of the month.

Not feeling up to writing anything more, extremely sleepy and depressed, my sister hates me (or maybe she just notice my self loathing), try again to teach her ayat al kursi tommorrow or the day after, I smacked her and feel so guilty (I should say felt to be more precise). Nana and nanee are very sick (grandparents, well one is, making the other give up on life apparently, cute but so sad), might have to go see them soon, I hope they get better. Ah well life goes on.

Scrubs addiction

Ok I have a really big Scrubs addiction. I have watched all the episodes that my bro had (which is practically all the episodes season 1 to 7 which is about 148 episodes at around 22 minutes each which is approximately 50 hours minus a bit for some missed episodes). This is a direct result of being confined to my room due to being so sick. I hate hearing double, and echoing in my head (left ear trouble mostly). I hate (some) doctors, it’s like dude whats wrong, I say well my ear feels like it is about to explode and my voice is not usually this sexy, he laughed, didn’t tell me whats wrong (until I asked after he wrote a perscription) and decided I was ok to go to work, funny condsidering I stayed the next 3 days in my room because I couldn’t stand any noise and my ears were ringing. Doctors nowadays, get the nurse to check the patient, ask three questions, throw drugs at them and hope they don’t want to know whats up, fantastic (not).

Anyway since I was confined to my room and couldn’t stand noises I couldn’t control I watched Scrubs, and gained weight (since I was not exercising since I can’t stand the noise and was generally feeling aweful). I have also not shaven and skipped my haircut (which I need quite badly, I look scarey). Anyway I hate myself (and Ted).

Well enough to exercise again, did some walking yesterday. Anyway posting DOFs again by next Saturday. Still need to add things to the WiW.